Making an appointment at a new gyno. My current one is just a tad too far away. I also think she could be more empathic and the office got too big. She really only scrolls thorugh my documents when she is already in the room with me and often can not remember important procedures, even when they are very recent.

i am going to eat food in this house in the forest. I am going to sleep in this bedroom in a forest. i am going to process trauma and lean into reframing and radical acceptance. what i can do is so little so i must and what i cant do is everything else im going to accept that it has been a real bad time but it isnt real bad right now. that its gonna be okay. im going to achieve being okay for a minute.

• getting the dog groomed
• getting my teeth cleaned
• a shit ton of baking

I’ve got a lot to do to prepare for holiday, got loads of washing and i need to start packing. I’m going to make a dent in it this week.

I’m going to go to a philosophy discussion group that I go to on Tuesdays. It initially didn’t seem much like an achievement, given that it’s one of the few things I regularly go to, but that’s why it’s an achievement; I’ve been struggling with lack of structure in my life over the last year or so, and though I have now firmly established this as a thing I do each Tuesday, it’s still an achievement. The fact that it was the only thing I could think of when I contemplated the week ahead speaks to that