was born in this century, pretty cool thing i must say as a former unborn person

i’ve discovered that i’m on a biweekly cycle of moods, one week i feel ok-ish and productive, next week i’m depressed as hell. i don’t know what causes this “cycle” but my guess would be the endocrine system.

this week was a “sad” week, couldn’t really focus on things, there’s not much to say about it

got an appointment with my therapist on the 3rd of this next month, i’m going to tell her about my chosen name and ask for hrt. i don’t care how i’ll hide it’s effects, i just don’t want to disassociate all the time

looking forward to next week!

also guess who’s top of their class!!!

i don’t think a wooden box is comfy, probably not worth it

better than last week

i think a fail safe or whatever kicked in my brain that kept me from feeling stuff, i was able function properly

got an appointment with my psychiatrist and holy crap her price have gone up (by 100%), hopefully that will be the last time i see a psychiatrist for a while

crap, i’ve been on vacation for the last 4 days, brought a lot of books to study at home, didn’t open a single book

i think my antidepressants aren’t enough anymore; the fog™️ got too big to suppress it. every thought i have feels like a giant rock, and talking to people feels like a chore. gonna make my mum book a session with my therapist soon; i hope she’ll be a help. in the last session, she was kinda eager to start me on estrogen, wonder if she’ll give in this time.

if i start taking proper medication i don’t know how or how much i’m going to hide it from my family. presuming i’ll need to see an endocrinologist, what will they and my family need to know?

facial hair fuckign sucks, more persists after each shave and there’s no way to stop/slow down its spread.

i would continue rambling on but it’s getting too messy