Very cool markings, is it a spiral?

#goals

Sounds like a paper fortune teller, I wonder how serious they’d be taken

Sublime

I realized how many extra steps I was going through to mask, and that the end product, behavior, was made off wildly wrong assumptions about what people or situations expected of me. And when I realized that, I wanted that fucking time and energy back. I found my own language to describe my own thoughts and feelings and just put that out there. It’s weird and vulnerable at first but my doctor seemed to understand. Meds made space in my brain to learn and unlearn different things. Stimulants helped get through the turmoil of chores. Anti-anxiety made the urge to please quieter. It’s my life, I want to feel good in it, as authentic as possible, as comfortable and natural. I didn’t know the color of my hair, had been dying it for 30 years, that was a nice surprise. Like they said, make the best of this, you should feel good. If something is hard, figure it out so it’s easier from here on forever, think if how good it will feel when the hard thing today is easy. Reduce sugar

She’s trying to take over

Watch out for her

Partner once said “I don’t believe in making the bed”, to which, “You’ve met the dog right?”. When they got a big 'ol sty, they realized 1+1=2. You ever seen the fan blades? Just flinging that all over the room. The blinds?

At least pull back the topmost layer, and pick up anything touching the floor. This is hygiene for me since I’ve always had pets, nasty little creatures, and allergies. Also change the pillow case every few days, without waiting until time for all sheets. And I really like my linens and quilts. These were hard fought habits, took a long time of trial and error to find the weights and fabrics I like. Some born from specific experiences. White particulates falling from the ceiling when people walk around upstairs, if it’s happening in the window sills, it’s happening on my pillows, and my face goes there.

Grew up a duvet girly, but doing something more modular with the partner and I having different temperature preferences. My grandma had 16 pillows on her bed and slept with 1, bet her bed was clean, she outlived my mom, be like Pompom extra af.