Because to me I see it as wearing a mask and faking who you are.

I also feel the same with makeup but worse (chemicals that destroy your skin).

That might be the same app I used, but I think it was a different name back then. Maybe that’s why I couldn’t find it.

I remember back in 2007,2008 etc I had an app on my phone that had tons of forums on it. I spent years on that app reading, learning, screen shorting, so much information. It was my favorite app. Few years later I get a new phone and can’t find that app anymore. There was a woodworking forum, electricians forum, welding forum, weed forum, and so many others. All in one single app.

Couldn’t find any of the forums. Depressing.

I had a narcissist in my life. I watched a ton of YouTube videos about how to deal with the situation. I went no contact with the person. I packed and move into my car for a few months. I found land and now live on bare land in an RV.

It’s kind of depressing that this narcissist is holding my other family members away from me as leverage against me, but they can no longer spread lies about me since they have no contact with me.

It’s still 1000x better life for me. Made tons of friends all around this new area in the past year here. Have work now, and things are just better.

I feel that living the way I do also is the opposite is what the narcissist would say about me. (They said I was free loading off them, I was lazy, didn’t want to work, etc). Now that I’m doing all those things I truly reflect back and see the narcissist is the one that is lazy, etc. feels good to finally be away from that abuse.

I used to run one of those link sites. It’s extremely difficult to monitize it unless you deal with really sketchy sponsors. Can’t have google ads on a pron site. I had a few afffiliates but they gave credits that I never got to a payout threshold. It ended up being not worth it and we shut it down.

A few years ago I had a threadripper server, then I had to move. I planned it out to have a little low power NAS for traveling.

Now I live offgrid in an RV with some solar panels. My little NAS can be powered by 12V so I have it plugged into a cigarette lighter plug on my battery. It’s been working great so far, has docker so I have a bunch of stuff running on it now.

Slrpnk worked, I had to use that during the outage.

Some tea bags are plastic.

I went no contact then moved far away. It helps lol