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        • cassandrafatigue@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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          5 days ago

          Being alone because I won’t jump off a cliff with people, being excluded or demonized for not being g retarded and evil, and being blamed for the failures of others when i explained why they would fail and proposed some alternative(s) that might not¹, and much worse along the same lines.

          ¹i think they’re really sloppified and just link the memory of the concepts of ‘that bitch cassandrafatigue’ ‘failure’ and ‘thing I failed at’ and just see that as a good enough target to lash out at. It makes it hard to feel like these things walking around me are fully people. The only utility to being correct is siding with team evil or doing big shorts, and I don’t fucking want to do that.

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            4 days ago

            I see. I really hope you’ll find your tribe eventually. It will take time, sometimes more sometimes less depending on where you are, but keep looking. There are good people out there who share your values.

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              4 days ago

              your tribe

              Not into that, after what I’ve been through. 5he whole tribalistic way of relating is exactly my problem.

              take time

              I’m almost 40, dear. They don’t exist. Send your platitudes elsewhere.

              good people

              Not supposed to be. Not sure I even subscribe to the idea

              who share your values

              On paper as part of a tribal identity, sure. We don’t really get along. And every mm I grow unbound to others, there are fewer of them.